Hello,
I am Millicent.
Ever since I was young, I have longed for a life of my own, one made by own hands…
This has led me to walk a unique and varied path.
I trained and registered as a Nurse in New Zealand and did one year working in the operating theatres, assisting with surgery. That training and experience was precious to me. I was entrusted, time and agin with the care of people at their most vulnerable. However, I never truly fitted in. It was painful to wrap myself in plastic every day, and a lot of the contact with humans was mechanical. I needed to dull and cut off part of myself to be able to do that work.
Since leaving Nursing, I have followed a scary, varied path of asking at every turn, “what do I really care about and who am I really?”. These questions has led me to spaces and people who have been amazing guides, mentors and trainers to me.
In asking these deeper questions, I have come to uncover my deep care of the earth, humanity and life in all its forms. As I have felt and followed this great love, a gentle awakening occurred in me. The way humans treat the earth and each other is leading towards ecological, global and societal collapse. With this realisation my path has become less about a personal wish to have a happy whole life and more about finding my place in the wider picture of life. A coming home to my self as indigenous to this earth right now, with the reality of what is.
From here, unfolding a way of living that I truly love has simultaneously become one of meeting the current global crisis, systemic and ecological collapse as a deeply personal issue.
Who am I beyond my identity as a consumer? Who am I at my essence, as a Woman in my most rawest form?
I have had some truly extra ordinary experiences. Where I have had the chance to go through a lot of my own healing. Reclaim parts of my raw aliveness and encountering the magic within humans as an expression of life.
In walking my authentic path, I have space in me, to be with you as you feel, heal and ultimately discover your own unique path.
It is so clear to me that this time of being alive as a human is about relating, it is about being humans together.
I would not be where I am right now, with out the love, presence, clarity and connection of other real alive humans. Being witnessed by the consciousness of another human is countenance. This is the magic that enables the inner transformation and healing to happen, from which the “solutions” will emerge.
I honour and name the people, spaces and resources that have had a profound impact on me:
Julia Neumann: particularly in moving into myself as a woman, and for being an uncompromising force of nature. She continuously guides me in feeling and using the energy and information of my fear.
Radically Alive Women: A context that enables me to meet my dragon, reclaim my rage and make connections with women all over the world.
Possibility Management: Given me tools and distinctions to navigate into a wider connection with myself, others and the world. Giving me the chance to go through authentic Initiatory processes.
Derrick Jensen: Opened my mind to the power of the written word and inspired me to write, furiously.
Janet Redmond: Held the most delicate of spaces, as I found my wings. Blowing wind my way, time and time again.
My Mother: for showing me what love is.
Women of Earth: Carrying me into a deeper relationship with my essence and the world.
Sónia Maia Gonçalves: Reminding me of what it means to be a witch…
The list is much, much longer and growing. A mycelium network that nourishes me, as tree like, I send my roots deeper and branches higher.
I am Millicent.